I don't know where to start , or from where to begin . . . it won't make a diffrent anyway !! . . . I don't know why I feel so comfortable talking to my computer , maybe no one can listen to me the way he does , he was such a great friend , he's always here when i found no one to talk to . . . I don't know why I feel so weak , so sad , living in the darkness that no body can see exept me !! I still don't understand a lot of things in this life !! I even can't understand myself sometimes . . . I think and I keep thinking !! what happend to that girl who doesn't stop smiling , who always support people to be optimistic no matter what !! what is happening to me !! maybe i am overreacting to something , but I swear it's totally normal for a girl in my age , so difficult to be understand by others , and so difficult to find somebody who can really understand you !! . . . I don't know which expression to use to describe my feelings ,.
Time is going so fast , I don't feel seconds anymore , I am growing up with every second , and with every second I feel more responsable and the weight is getting fat over my shoulders , maybe I feel this way because I am the biggest , i am the one who everybody can count on !! it's a hard feeling I swear ! « to be responsable » I have learned to be one sins I was a little girl , which somehow made me feel , think , talk , react in a different way than those in my age !! I use the same expressions everytime because this is all about going around in the same circle !!
[ By Me Le 30 Octobre 2008]